June 23, 2007
I’m back to blogging, finally.
Sorry for the short holiday, but things have been a bit hectic the past few weeks. Actually, from the beginning of May things have been a bit hectic, and I’ve been following less and less blogs, and the past couple of days just got to the point where I didn’t even get round to blogging or reading.
I’m typing at Badseloop. It’s a campsite the church have in the most North-Eastern part of South Africa, and I’ll be spending quite some time here in the next few weeks. I’ll be helping with an adventure camp for 14-15 year olds this week, then I’ll be on holiday with Maryke and her parents the week after that, and the last week of the holidays we’ll be back for a camp with 13 year olds. But more on all that later on…
There is just so many thoughts in my head after this short sabbatical-from-blogging, that I don’t even know where to start. But here goes, some of the thoughts I’ve been having lately.
What’s the really important question in theological conversations? You see, most theological conversation revolve around the questions of “What do you believe about this or that?”, or “What do you think about this topic?”, or something similar. But more and more, I’m realizing that this question cannot be answered before an even more important question is answered.
More and more I’m realizing that it’s becoming impossible for me to answer questions about “what do you believe?”. You see, this question implies that:
- there exist some final answer, some definite formulation of faith,
- that it is possible for one person to formulate this in such a way that another person can understand it without misunderstandings
But I’m experiencing that it’s not that easy to put my finger on how I see things, it seems to be a little vague at places, and it doesn’t seem to fit any of the possible standard categories perfectly. When I try to define it, I’m constantly having this feeling that the other person is misunderstanding me. So it’s more like:
- Although some final answer might exist, I’m struggling to find the exact words that would represent it
- But even if I had the right words, I’m pretty sure you would have misunderstood me if I told them to you
So I’d rather that theological conversations start out with some different questions. Questions like:
- Who are you?
- Where do you come from?
- Why do you consider this question?
To put it into the form of the implication of the question “what do you believe?”, I guess what I’m experiencing is something like:
- The best I can give you if a general idea of what I’m thinking, in what direction I’m looking, and what the questions is I’m struggling with
- But even this I’d only be able to give you if you’re willing to journey with me. If you are willing to trust me, and accept my integrity. Get to know me, and give me the opportunity to get to know you.