can’t speak about Amahoro

June 12, 2009

Do you remember those youth camps from high school where you’d drive back in the bus, and suddenly realize that for you the whole world has changed in a weeks time, but for everybody else, this was just another week? While sharing comunion last night, I realized that this has  been one of those weeks. For some of us who attended Amahoro, the whole world has changed this week.

I guess that’s why I struggle to speak about it at this stage. My one colleague asked a few hours ago whether I’m back all inspired and with lots of ideas and made a lot of new friends? The answer is “no” to the first two. I made many dear friends, but I’m not back inspired, siked up, with many ideas of how I’m going to change the world. The change that happened this week was on a much deeper level.

I’m back, and I’m a different Afrikaner than I was a week ago. I’m back, and I’ll be going in a slightly different direction theologically than I did a week ago. The change was in identity, in the direction that I take in my personal story. It’s the kind of change where I know that most probably nothing will change today, or tomorrow, or in the next week even. But in weeks to come, I will have to process the experiences, the challenging conversations, the meaning of the new relationships, the emotions, the thoughts on my people, my history, my culture, and in a years time, maybe something of what happened this week would become part of who I am on the deepest level.

So, 2010 in Nairobi. I hope to connect with the Amahoro family and my new friends from Kenya, Nairobi.

5 Responses to “can’t speak about Amahoro”

  1. Andries Says:

    Cobus, I understand your feeling of not wanting to speak. As you can gauge from my lastest post, Amahoro Africa: family reunion of change agents, I am pretty psyched up at the moment. http://nextchurch.wordpress.com/

    However I fully identify with what happened on a deeper level. And I too need a lot of processing time now. I have wanted to write about my own African identity for years. Amahoro has significantly shaped that identity for me in a way that I also find difficult to talk about.

    Maybe that’s an idea for the synchroblog we were discussing. Maar ek wil dit in Afrikaans skryf en laat Cecile dit vir my vertaal.

    Happy digesting…

  2. Andries Says:

    Cobus, as you can guage from my latest post, Amahoro Africa: family reunion of change agents, I am pretty psyched up at the moment. http://nextchurch.wordpress.com/

    However I fully identify with your not being able to speak about the deep stuff that happened at Amahoro. I also have a lot to digest and process.

    I have wanted to write about my own African identity for years. Amahoro has helped shape it in some very significant ways. Maybe that’s an idea for the synchroblog we discussed. Maar ek wil dit in Afrikaans doen en Cecile vra om dit te vertaal. Happy digesting…

  3. Andries Louw Says:

    Cobus, as you can guage from my latest post, Amahoro Africa: family reunion of change agents, I am pretty psyched up at the moment. http://nextchurch.wordpress.com/

    However I fully identify with your not being able to speak about the deep stuff that happened at Amahoro. I also have a lot to digest and process.

    I have wanted to write about my own African identity for years. Amahoro has helped shape it in some very significant ways. Maybe that’s an idea for the synchroblog we discussed. Maar ek wil dit in Afrikaans doen en Cecile vra om dit te vertaal. Happy digesting…


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